Feelin' a Little Separation Anxiety....

Oi...I need to write on this thing more! Sorry!! So, I've been going at a Geology midterm since Thursday the 7th. That's almost two weeks of studying for one stupid midterm. I swear this class is going to be the death of me. But I'm going straight to bed after this and getting some rest to take it tomorrow. After this midterm, life will somewhat return to normal. Finals are NOT going to be hard AT ALL. A breeze actually. I just have to study for one of them and it's the last one on the 12th and I just need to barely pass it. So it's all good! :D In the meantime, I need to get my New Yorkin' goin' on!...and yes, that is a word. I made it up myself. There's SO MUCH TO DO! I have a bucket list for the city before I leave and only half of the things are crossed off. I gotta get goin! I'm waiting to hear from my friend Robert, an intern at SNL, about tickets to Jimmy Fallon. Super fun! I plan to wait in line and hopefully get into SNL for my birthday. I head to Buffalo next weekend and a special surprise after that, which I cannot reveal until at LEAST the 25th. I'm planning on taking class at Alvin Ailey, Merce Cunningham, and Equinox within my last two weeks or so of school. Charlye Dehart and I plan to do LOTS of stuff like biking through Central Park, going to Magnolia's cupcakes, and spotting a famous person in SoHo or West Village (I still can't believe I haven't spotted one in the 5 months I've been here!) Wednesday this upcoming week is my last week of institute classes. Friday I head to the Brooklyn Bridge with Charlye and we're going to get some goodies at Ferrara's in Little Italy afterwards. There's SO much to look forward too. Today, after church, I got a little down because I know my time is running out here in the city, at least for a while. Maybe after I graduate in two years work may take me there or something. Who knows?! But I wanna live it up while I have a little time left. I love it here. I've had a lot of trials and hard times, some which have been mentioned on this blog, but not all. And I am extremely grateful for it. I'm especially grateful to my friends and family- mom, dad, Braden, and Grandma for supporting me financially and morally, and allowing me this happiness and adventure. I've learned SO much about myself. These next few weeks are going to be great! I can feel it. It's in the 50s and 60s so the weathering is finally perking up. Let's do this!!! :D

I'm Not Content with Where I Am.

There is SO much to talk about. General Conference being one of them, but I've decided as of now that I will talk about that later. It is currently 11:30pm on a Monday night and my right forearm is sore form golfing so this post shall be short. I wanna go to bed. Why is it that I never like where I am?? I always need to be somewhere else. I think that is one of the reasons why I like travelling so much. I get bored fast. Whenever I schedule something, I just want it to hurry up and get here already! Why can't I just enjoy what I'm in? It's frustrating. Like, for example, my first semester at ASU I was away from home, for a long time, by myself, for the first time ever. So I was calling my parents 7 times a day and crying because I wanted to go home. Then I did go home. And it was boring. Nothing was going on. No one was around. All of my friends were off at college or working, my parents were working, and Braden, my brother, went to school. When they got home, they were all busy doing homework, cooking dinner, and trying to get things done. I just kind of sat there. I went to dance classes as often as I could. But other than that, it was humdrum. So why did I want to go home so badly? The same here in NYC. There's times where I just want to go back to ASU and get my classes done and graduate. Since I'm not there, I want to be there. And because I'm complaining about missing out on stuff in AZ, I miss out on cool stuff here, like Justin Bieber performing live for free in Times Square!!! How could I miss that!? And then I get bitter about how I'm in the thick of things, where everything happens and where many people want to be, and I'm not participating in any of it! Ahhh! Why can't I just be grateful?! Hahaha. I am grateful. Today, I went with my friend, Hannah Wright, to her school classes. She's a dance major at Juilliard. It was AMAZING to watch. And she told me that we can get together and use the space there to practice. Uh, YES!! She's an amazing dancer, 10x better than I will ever be. She's beautiful, elegant, and an amazing friend. The rehearsal space we're using has 1 wall, a wall of windows, a wall of mirror, and another wall of windows overlooking Lincoln Center, with a perfect view of the NYC LDS Temple in view. It's beautiful.  I can't wait to practice with her. I'm going to work hard!! In addition, Danielle Pearson and I are planning to attend classes at Dance New Amsterdam, Alvin Ailey, and Cunningham, among others. I just hope I can afford it. There's still over half of my things to do on my "Shelby's Amazing New York To-Do List" before I go. Many many many things. The last week of April I am looking forward to, and yet I won't. Because I won't be here. In NYC. Go figure.